It Will Pass, I Know It Will

Stress and anxiety are longtime friends of mine
They sit in the corner of my mind, gnawing at my thoughts,
Turning me into someone I don’t want to be
I see them in the corner of my eye
I feel them, like water in my lungs
Forcing me to take gasping breaths
In a room full of unused oxygen
It feels like the dam is about to break
Like a big wave will knock me off my feet
And I will drown in a whirlwind of anticipation and worry

I try to tell myself that it will be over faster than I think it will
That the fabric of time has a way of wrinkling up strangely
During times like these
But my thoughts run too quickly
And I can’t grab hold of any of them

My body tries to fight this deranged enchantment
But it loses, very badly
When I step out of the shower every night
My face appears in the clouded mirror
And I see two black holes where my eyes should be:
The product of sleepless and dark, dark nights

The last time I saw myself like this
Was a few months ago
In the days leading up to my physics final
I woke at four in the morning
The nightmares of the disturbing holes in my face
Plaguing my pitiful mind
It’s disturbing to be afraid of your own self
In a confusing daze, I wrote the best poem I’ve ever written
“Her Dark Eyes,” it was called
So it wasn’t me who wrote it,
It was the stress monster inside me
She’s a good poet, I think

But I know it will pass
I tell myself that
It will pass
I know it will

I know that there are better things I could be doing than complaining about how stressed I am, but I’m just trying my best. Hopefully, all this will end soon and I can resume writing my regular type of blog posts. The ideas are in my head, I just can’t seem to get them out. It’s like trying to pick up a penny with a gloved hand, or like trying to talk underwater. (“Her Dark Eyes,” if anyone wants to read it.)


24 thoughts on “It Will Pass, I Know It Will

  1. Nothing relieves stress better than just talking it out. You have lots of listeners and supporters. Sometimes you find your own solutions while expressing the problem. You can only experience stress about things you care about and you obviously care about a lot. Her Dark Eyes and It Will Pass, I know it Will are exceptional work because it’s authentic and relatable. Those pale green eyes are portals to a busy and brilliant mind. Great things are happening in there. 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much. You’re right, talking it out really helps. This poem is my natural train of thought. I wrote it from start to finish in one sitting, with very little editing. It felt like a weight was lifted from my chest. And now that I am a bit more calm and collected, I can learn a lot about myself by looking back at my words. Thank you for reading and commenting, it means so much to me to know that there is someone listening.

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      1. Kat, you are someone very much worth listening to. What you share with all of us is in a way a balm even as you struggle with all the things your brilliant mind explores. It’s like sitting down with friends discussing worthy subjects, the kind of things that are relatable and important to life. It’s refreshing.

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  2. There’s nothing better to do with those mental health issues of yours than to write them out and prove them wrong. Keep doing it! Not just for yourself but we readers who love the poetry of yours. ♥️ All the love and support.

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      1. I think it’s human nature to be drawn towards the negative aspects in life. I read about a study that showed how negative news are trusted more than positive news, and how someone with a negative outlook on life is perceived as more intelligent. I try not to get caught up in all of the negativity, but it’s just so easy to fall for it. It’s amazing that you spread positivity. In fact, I’ll try to make my next poem a happy one.

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      2. that would be totally appreciated by me … I think we all need a more positive outlook in order to spread peace and calm … negativity spreads fear and insecurity which I see as quite destructive 😦

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